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2008-05-12T20:04:00.000+08:00

i am too lazy to blog. so go away.

2008-02-19T22:52:00.002+08:00

THE PLATTERS-IM SORRY
I'm sorry for the things
I've done I know that I'm the foolish one
Now that I see who's to blame
I'm so ashamed, I'm sorry

I'm sorry for the things I've said
Just like a child I lost my head
I should have known from the start
I'd break your heart, I'm sorry

Please be kind and I know you'll find
It's so easy to forgive
Darling, wait for it's not too late
Give our love a chance to live

I know the heartaches you've been through
I know for I've had heartaches, too
There's nothing more I can do
But say to you "I'm sorry"

Please be kind and I know you'll find
It's so easy to forgive
Darling, wait for it's not too late
Give our love a chance to live, oh live

I know the heartaches you've been through
I know for I've had heartaches, too
There's nothing more I can do B
ut say to you----"I'm sorry"

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2008-02-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

oh i forgot to mention.
i finally went out with Yanyi after like a million years and we met Bird, then we met carolyn who happened to be with alvina. Seriously, can you stand the irony of the day?(if you can, that means you dont know me well enough). okay, then yy,caro, alvina and i ate dinner together at pasta mania, but alvina left early. and it was just me caro and yy. And the funniest shit happened but i shall not say. yy took a bus home despite caro begging her to take the train, and and and, caro and i took the train and met Bird in the train again.

Gosh, my life absolutely rocks doesnt it? its a sign that i should go to Tibet and rear sheep for the rest of my life.

ok, im officially done.
ciao

Update after a million years

2008-02-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

OKOK, this is an update after a million years, after this update im going on a hiatus for awhile again(:

Egypt photos are on my facebook! I will never ever upload it here cos theres about 1000+ pictures. so yep. If you dont have facebook, you are one FAT NOOB(no offence hillary), so hurry get an account so you can view my pretty pictures. HAHA.

okok, here are a few things i've been doing or am gg to do.
-slacking at home.
-slacking somemore
-out shopping with weird people
-i went to haji lane(like finally)
-i am going to grab a threadless shirt.(www.threadless.com)
-i worked at @#$^%&$# St Regis for a day and got 45 bucks.
-im gonna get my bro a laptop on his bday(aug)
-i need to get a wilson lime green n-code racket for someone's bday
-egypt is damn cool, i wanna be buried at the Valley of the Kings when i die
-i visited tania at work
-i visited bird at work
-i keep bumping into PL lites everytime i step out of my house
-i saw persie in her most unglam moment(china lady,haha)
-i went to sentosa with a few ppl.
-hill,persie and i were interviewed by paul twohill in town
-i took a photo which will be on facebook.
-i am going to work at SGH in june
-i will be going to SAJC on valentines day morning
-i have a date with hill and persie on V Day.(threesome sia)
-i cant stop saying 'what sia'
-i learnt the malay word 'mucham'
-i think tweety bird is damn cute.
-did i mention that Egypt is damn cool?

okay, now. my hiatus moment. happy CNY!
see ya later alligator.

sitting in a tree

2007-12-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

Caro and AnnNa sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G! (:

egypt dressing

2007-12-01T14:44:00.000+08:00

i just read through some forums and websites about what to wear to Egypt. And im HORRIFIED. i looked through my cupboard and realised....i can hardly wear any of my clothes there. Surely i dont want to go there taking pictures with beautiful scenary but a shirt that says "PL NETBALL" , unsightly and hideous.
Bro said "aiya, just wear bedsheet there lah." -_- helpful..seriously. die.

prom pictures up soon!

tatooist

2007-11-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

Dont waste 10 bucks on The Tatooist, it sucks bigg time.

prom

2007-11-29T02:21:00.000+08:00

the damage is done.

Prom. everyone was really gorgeous especially ****. Anyway, she was so damn cute please. haha. I wanna squeeze her and ruffle up her soft hair. thats what i did to my hamster everyday until it eventually died. Its really really unusual that i act so *ahem* desperate, but RACHEL LIM YUNSHI was being so damn-it annoying, i just couldnt help it.
Okay, so i havent uploaded the pics yet, but i will. For now, i'll just hide under my purple blankie and hope i'll shrivel up and die cos i look so fat in most of my pictures.

ADIOS. for now.

I've been awake for a while now
You got me feeling like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
-Colbie Caillat, Bubbly

hot

2007-11-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

I wanna lock you up in my closet when no one's around
I wanna put your hand in my pocket because you're allowed
I wanna drive you into the corner and kiss you without a sound
I wanna stay this way forever I'll say it loud
Now you're in, and you can't get out

[Chorus]
You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
It's so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me baby
-Avril Lavigne, Hot

Damn nice song, really awesome tune and rhyming thingy. Too bad it has absolutely no similarity or significance to my pathetic life.

im my own slave.

bother.

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2007-11-24T00:44:00.000+08:00

I still havent got a frigging dress for the frigging prom. damn it. Im way too busy to do those kinda things, seriously..
I really really hope that it'll all turn out fine on tues.

Im not that sadistic actually, i do like a nice fairy tale ending once in a while.

SAW FOUR!!! WATCH MOVIES DOT COM(: thanks charmziess!

love

2007-11-21T17:38:00.000+08:00

"learn to love yourself before you try to love others"

I lost my phone. Im the best.

tag

2007-11-19T20:05:00.000+08:00

I just realised i forgot to put the tagboard back here. Troublesome.

Sec4 farewell was pretty alright. Didnt stay over but i went for the fun bit; testimonial match(: Havent played netball for the longest time ever, but the matches were alright, fun.

I MISSED SAJC OPENHOUSE, kill me.

bother.

back

2007-11-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

IM BACK! i cant bear to part with this blogskin layout i did myself although im going to change it soon. Im too free.

Been doing pretty much of bumming around. Went down all the way to wisma sony ericsson on tues to get my phone repaired. They diagnosed it as "swivel loose" and believe it or not, the bloody repair cost is $116.65
Today i super glued the swivel back(: which cost about a total of only 45cents(cost of glue) and now its back to normal and ready for trade-in of about 100 bucks((: I rock, im a genius, im awesome.

Tennis tennis everyday.
Spent the rest of the week playing LAN counter-strike and shopping at clarke quay. Stupidest place to shop.
Saturday night went down to holland v with the NUS people after church. no pics cause daddy sent the camera for upgrading.

im bored and broke.
goodnight freedom, i'll see you again when my room is rid of clutter.

bother.

MOVED(:

2007-07-12T20:02:00.000+08:00

You are slow again, i have MOVED. haha

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2007-07-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

Im no longer going to use this blog anymore. haha. Find out from me where i've gone!(:

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2007-07-05T19:29:00.001+08:00

I made an amazing and exciting discovery!(EME I FOUND UGLY'S BLOG) Shit, its making me mean again... karma karma karma, dont come after me(: Anyway, im glad im no longer the emo shitass i used to be last year, or well, beginning of this year, cos well.. i didnt get emo. In fact, i feel kinda urm.. wierd but neutral at the same time. I think you call it a consternation. But im still wondering, why the fuck was it so different? Sometimes i feel, maybe its me cos i was an ass, but then again, i have a terrible habit of seeing myself as less than perfect((: Shutup, im building on my self-esteem, HAHA. oh and after one hour of reading ugly's blog, i realise that deep dark secrets are terribly unavoidable even if 2 persons are very close. That kinda sucks cos i like seeing the aftermath of deep-dark-secrets being revealed. Im sadist LAH.haha.

13JULY!! FRIDAY THE 13TH! Its a special day, a great and AWESOME day!. Its the day BY is coming back to the cell. i miss you!(: Im going to make a vid in memory of The Hair. HAHA. ooh sexy xD!

ps: the 10th and 11th of nov 2006is an awesome day too.oh my, im a bitch, haha.

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2007-06-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

I watched the news today, and it was really interesting.
This was in the news....

Its a hybrid(cross) between a pony and a zebra. Awesome.

THIS IS LIKE AWESOME, that's why i love learning bio(:

PS: there's absolutely no photoshop involved. It was on the news.
Its a hybrid between a white female horse and a male zebra.
The female is called Eclipse and the male is called Ulysse.
So this little cute zorse is called Eclyse. Awesome.

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2007-06-26T18:07:00.000+08:00

I miss BY!!!!):

Study break right now, time for some eyecandy!
KATHERINE MOENNIG
okok, here's my utmost favourite(:

Whoohoo she's topless!(((:

Now...
Back to studies and art. Im HAPPY cos my eyes are happy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGNA!

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2007-06-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

I bid SAJC farewell. Its officially the second week of June but i havent studied a single bit. Been at 2 different camps in that 2 weeks and im totally shag.

HAPPY BDAY EMOLINE!!!! =D
That girl, she just loves to wear the uniform i hate. Anyway, EMELINE, LETS WEAR IT OUT TGT SOMETIME AND MAKE TROUBLE! MAHAHAHAHAH!!!

should i stay,
or should i go?

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2007-06-17T17:56:00.000+08:00

Replies!

Shiyun: hey hey hey! i miss you more than i miss training. HAHA. we should go play bball after o's. (:

Eme: ha. yeah, i know im the best!

Caryn: what's H and ends with a T? i only know you're a W and ends with an O. (wierdo.) haha.

Bird: you're my indian man! (((((:

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2007-05-30T17:52:00.000+08:00

I walked home with Bird today(: Its my third or fourth time walking home from school. The sun was like so damn hot but suprisingly,i didnt perspire AT ALL. Probably Bird's ultra dark tan absorbed all the sun's rays for me so i didnt feel as hot. HAHAHA. Aw, so sweet right..

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2007-05-26T10:32:00.000+08:00

Im doomed. O's chinese is on Monday and im going to sentosa at 3. Well done clare... Well done.

hooray, im no longer emo(:

Do we know more than we knew then?
Or do we know less and we just pretend?
Should i ignore my heart and walk away?
Your eyes tell me more than words will ever say

Should we take a chance and dance the last dance?
Should we soend the night one more time caught up in this romance?
Or maybe wait and see ,let it be, the way that it will be
Should we take a chance and dance the last dance?

How can i be wrong when i feel the way i feel?
How can i deny emotion that's so real?
In the middle of the night i call out your name
Do i ever cross your mind?Do, do you feel the same?

Let me go, come to me
Which way is the way that it should be?
This is so bitter sweet
There's no way that we will ever know for sure

-Brian Mcknight, Last Dance

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2007-05-22T17:49:00.001+08:00

Andy Roddick(: His ex is Mandy Moore and he's not officially dating Maria Shittopova. Hooray!

Got back Midyears today..
English-61.8
Chinese-67
Maths-52.9 HAHA I FINALLY PASSED!!! =D
Sc(bio,chem)- (75.5 , 54.5) 65
Humans(ss,lit)-53
Geog-64

Will be visiting Ngee Ann Poly tomorrow for the DPA thingy. Doubt i'll want to go there, but you know...its going to be my fourth choice. Lucky number four huh. I think Poly's gonna be damn boring.

Guess you’ll be glad to know
That I’ve learned
To laugh and smile

No my heart just can’t hide
That old feeling inside
Way deep down inside
-The Wilkinsons, I Go Crazy

My gosh, such an old song.

2007-05-16T12:53:00.000+08:00

For mid-years, im pretty satisfied with my chinese grades. Actually im surprised, didnt study for it except for the gonghan part.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUHUI!

Sorry U6, no, U5. Cant make it tomorrow. Should have reserved me earlier(: But but but, will go out with you guys soon lah. After O's!

Rachel limyunshi looks better with short hair. She doesnt look like some bobo anymore and she's no longer balding (i think). YAY for her! I just MUST comment, Lou's hair is ultra weird, how to steal back melinda like that??! haiyo.

Tania is an umbrella with lots of small holes. Look for her if you need your homework done.
I wanna shack Andy Roddick, ok random.

2007-05-16T12:38:00.000+08:00

Replies!

Soh-notcool- adeline is gay, she's gayshit. (:
Hillary- CAN I RESTART? CAN I RESTART?
Caryn- what language is that? hahaha.
Persie- you were ALWAYS moving at a turtle speed. not only art.
(:

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2007-05-02T05:52:00.000+08:00

I give up. Im not going to host any stupid china student anymore.
Someone kill me before i screw up my maths paper. For now, i should just bang my head against the wall and ask myself why did i feel that way. Argh, im losing everything.

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2007-04-26T11:56:00.000+08:00

Love is so a one-way thing. Dont you think?(:

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2007-04-26T11:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYUN!!!(:

Im getting annoyed with the whole angel and mortal shit. Its...just lame. Like, someone you know yet you dont, is writing you letters and giving you stuffs. Well, that's still okay, but now i, the mortal, has to reply?!?!?! This feels so...sec1.

Art, the biggest regret of my life. I think i've made every possible wrong decision that i could ever make regarding art. And now, im a month behind time for art. Im supposed to have finished 60 sketches and all my layout like...2 weeks ago?! IM DOOMED and midyears are coming. DOOMED. Ok, so lets see where im at now; 21 sketches and.... ZERO layouts. omg. Merry Christmas.

i'll take a step back before laying it all behind
i see the shadows of our weak hearts collide
we ask why is the past we keep so divine?
not until its over, these tears never thus run dry.
I'll take a step back, in time.

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2007-04-23T11:26:00.000+08:00

Replies!

Janice: hey sexy! Could you print the exciting parts out for me? haha. Cause its risky for me to look at it online. Parents think i LOOK at porn, which i dont. (;

V: AHEM! Yaoi manga is not as action-packed as L word, haha, if you get what i mean. Its like pictures, without colour somemore): i think i'll rather be called clare-bear, my dear vicky.

Joey: yes i overslept. oh and i feel poor so i've increased the rental of my yaoi manga to 4 bucks. HAHA.

GOODNIGHT FELLOW GAY FRIENDS!(:

2007-04-16T02:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIRD! (:

you know, i looked at a magazine and i realised that without you, there's a brighter future ahead.
Amazing, so much i learnt from a magazine cover. HAHAHA. My life's boring.

I BOUGHT A YAOI COMIC!! AND ITS LIKE HARDCORE! TOO HARD FOR CHARMON (the pokemon form of charmaine) TO SEE! im bringing it to school on Monday, my eyes are glued to it already(:

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2007-04-13T14:45:00.000+08:00

Pricelesssssss!!!!
I came across this in someone's friendster profile, and i almost fell of my wheeley chair!
Its says: cute: bird!!
cuter; doralynn!!!!!!
cutest:ann na!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOH MY GOODNESS! Ok, whoever that ahlian is, personally i dont think she got it in the correct order.
(SHUTUP EMELINE BEFORE I GLUE YOU TO THE TREE AND LET LIZARDS AND WORMS EAT YOU UP)
hahaha. Those three, funny. Vicky should cut her hair shorter, period.

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2007-04-13T14:21:00.000+08:00

im cracking

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2007-04-11T11:58:00.000+08:00

Ah, no more care bear.

Its hard not being emo.

Here sitting all alone
In the stillness of my room
Silence fills the room
Where I once held you
There's a breeze around me
A memory that chills me to the bone
It's tearing me apart

My Heart can't let you go
Though I try to break away
It haunts me every night
But the ghost of you won't fade
You've hypnotized my soul
My heart can't let you go

Now I try and turn the page
I know I must move on
But I never get too far
It's you alone I want
There's a touch that's missing
An emptiness that I've never known
And I don't know where to start
It's tearing me apart

No matter how hard I pretend
You might be coming back
Don't wanna face the fact
Every story has an end
-Mikaila

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2007-04-09T16:15:00.000+08:00

IM IN THE SAME MATH TUITION AS SADRINA! and i didnt even know. Haaha. i rock. Her eyes are damn cool(:

My mum think i look at porn, note LOOK AT, its diff from LWord which is WATCHING. She thinks that deviantart is porn. Like ok. My life is screwed anyway.

Its (time check) 1.08am. I just finished that bloody netball journal.Oh my gosh, SPORTS DAY IS LIKE THIS THURS!! AH! AND ARCHER'S GOING TO BE CARE BEAR! i hope. hahaha. "care bear, SHARE!"
Bloody Netball bloody sec1 bloody induction camp is this friday, yep, right after sports day. Its great mann, isn't life so meaningful?

Damn, i miss you.

Chew house is going to be beside Archer this year, with no podium in the centre. Damn it, seriously.. why THIS year and not LAST year? argh.

Oh, did i mention? My CIP spastic buddy is called Marcus, and he doesnt give a shit about what i say. Im beginning to have a fixed mindset about guys named Marcus. Seriously.

hmm, its been 99 days since i last saw you. Right?

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2007-04-03T13:07:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't love you
but I want to,
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine, when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop

Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to, be around you
There's so much I can't say
and do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine,
when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me and
I'm wondering why I waited so long
Looking back I realized, i
t was always there just never spoken
and I'm waiting here
been waiting here

-Just So You Know, Jesse McCartney

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2007-03-31T03:36:00.000+08:00

Saturday is going to be the busiest day i've ever had. Its so packed that i cant have lunch and dinner, and i had to turn down 2 lunch offers from my ex-cell leader and my current really goodlooking cell leader. AHHH! Why..
Heading back to school on a sat at 12 to learn the stupid archer dance thing. Azu's changing the dance steps when the rehearsal is like on Monday. die.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TANIA AND JENNY!!

I've been feeling the same as last year; mainly, just Lost. Like everything seems to be moving too fast and art is killing me, my fingers are like shaking from drawing too much. Would the world please slow down?

Alright, so now Persie, Hillary and i are suppose to like Yuhui. haha. Wait, i cant remember whose stupid secret we are covering up for. Hmm..
Im sorry to say, but i think its disgusting to have the same taste as Rachel lim(haha), so, eyecandy no more! (:
tsk, im filled with irony.

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2007-03-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

This sucks. Really.

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2007-03-15T16:20:00.000+08:00

A deeper meaning perhaps?
But i think this changing world makes everyone uglier.

Karma Karma Darling, what's this game you're playing?

Gyming tomorrow again at 10, my muscles are coming back again! YEAH BABY! HAHAHA. im gonna be as skinny as Bird by the end of the year, and i'll have four pecs(; Hopefully. So im keeping off all sweet stuff from the 15th of march onwards. GO CLARE LETS CREATE A WORLD WHERE BEAUTY HAS A WHOLE NEW MEANING! haha. im so lame.

love that Thing who cant sleep tonight(:

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2007-03-13T08:50:00.000+08:00

A fascination for gays

I wont be going for cell group in church for the next 8 weeks cause im too embarassed to see my cell leader. I let him hear the "I Must Be Emo" song by Hollywood Undead in my phone, and if you've seen the lyrics, you'll know that probably only janice, shufen, dory and i appreciate that song. Im a BIG FAT NOOB.

Its going to be a sad friday this week. Spent 99.80 bucks in NewUrbanMale yesterday and THEREFORE, im grounded for a day which so happens is friday. Mum nagged my brains out cause she hates me to spent a 100 in the same shop.. and only on 2 tops. I havent even got the laptop file yet and its 60 bucks i think. I couldnt help it, all the guys working in the 11am sunday morning shift were damn hot and goodlooking. (: (and there were at least 5 of them)

Maths tuition later. Feel like killing myself.

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2007-03-09T12:46:00.000+08:00

I, had a funny dream last night. Its been half a year since i last dreamt(or rmbered my dream). Rachel lim was in my dream, thats why im too ashamed to tell it to anybody so far lah.haha. It was like this...
We were walking in some shopping place and we saw A and J together. And rach lim being super big mouth she exclaimed "OMG SHE'S SO UGLY!" They heard it, while we were like laughing our heads off. And they stared at us. i turned to A and said "stare what stare lah", and she ran off crying; J running after her.
Im happy now cause i really hope that dream comes true. (: Nothing's impossible in this small little island.

Do I know more than we knew then?
Or do we know less and we just pretend
Your brought out my heart and walked away
Your eyes tell me more than words could ever say

Should we take a chanceAnd dance the last dance?
Should we spend the night
One last time
Caught up in this romance
Or maybe wait and see, let it be
The way that it will be
Should we take a chance
And dance the last dance

How can I be wrong?
When I feel the way I feel
How can I deny, emotions that's so real
In the middle of the night
I call out your name
Do I ever cross your mind?
Do you feel the same?

Let me go, come to me
Which way is the way it should beT
his is so bittersweet
There's no way that we can love enough to show
If we take the chance
-Brian Mcknight, Last Dance

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2007-03-08T10:07:00.000+08:00

Hitler's so gay. i like(:

4th session of counselling tonight at 9.30. Im excited cause im being counselled by a damn goodlooking guy from church. sigh. He's teaching me how to love kids or whatever shit cause im leading a p6 cell and they are totally annoying pieces of crap. At this rate, i think i want to be counselled forever(:

Its so rare,so sweet,
So far from my reach

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry
I was here
You were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
-Brian Mcknight, One Last Cry

I love that song, its so touching. Doesnt really mean anything to me anymore, but...
ya. The song breaks my little heart...

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2007-03-07T09:01:00.000+08:00

Adolf Hitler likes women to shit in his face. Its some sort of sexual pleasure. Men, go figure.

My eye bags are showing. Im desperately trying to get sick so i can get at least a day's rest. Its not even july and im dying from art. I need inspiration, but sadly, inspiration flew away a long time ago.

Draw that smile on my face again
The smile only you can create.

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2007-03-01T14:56:00.000+08:00

One fun week. Last day of CTs spent doing my fav test pp and then going for a movie with them(caro,lou,rach,abbs,rach,eme)(: they rock my little world. Today went for lunch cum dinner with caro and rach, its one long bitch fest that caro and i havent had since Perth trip. Rach lim is damn stupid, no offence.(: School mag came today, the colour is like SHIT, pink and purple. At least there were really nice pics for netball this yr thanks to ME, cause tng asked me to choose the pics this time. Whoohoo! Finally chose one that everybody looked good in,especially me, haha. Oh and i betrayed netball and am now in art club, dont believe, see the school mag..hah.

Whats worst then trying to have a decent conversation with 16 P6 kids? Its having a decent conversation with their parents. My gosh, I DONT WANNA LEAD A CELL ANYMORE! I cant stand kids, what the F&*$ am i doing??? shit. i have like parents calling me during school hours and expecting me to pick up. argh! I want to change church.

a flower quickly fading
please catch me when im falling
and tell me who i am.
cause i am yours
-who am i, casting crowns

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2007-02-24T10:19:00.000+08:00

Your name, carved into the depths of my heart
Will always be there.

Candice HoHoHo finished off Anglican High with a ROAR! Their attitude and guys suck like balls, but who cares, we won anyway. Candice and the PL table tennis team had their very own cheerleading team comprising of cheerleaders from ALL the houses(: We so cool.

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2007-02-23T12:32:00.000+08:00

Tell me why im swimming against the tide

Looks like im trying to get the impossible,
Looks like i Want the impossible.
Its a cruel world where love is a cruel thing.
Over and out.

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2007-02-19T16:56:00.000+08:00

Shit, im getting insomnia.

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2007-02-19T15:12:00.000+08:00

Yess! Naruto fillers have ended at ep221(: and Bleach is getting cooler by the minute. I dont need all that yaoi action to make me excited anymore. hah. Daddy dearest just became my new shopping buddy ever since i dumped the last one. How convenient, its like posb bank shopping with me. i didnt get to see my eyecandy this week, damn.

Art SA is on friday, and i need to get 33 sketches done in 4 days so that i would at LEAST have 40 sketches to show owkok. Happy birthday to me.

I led training on Thurs with Shiyun, but she left to see the docs 5 mins into trg. So i was on my own, and its so damn annoying to lead trg cause you cant slack, if not everyone will slack as well. And i had to do everything properly and well so that i can say others. Its tough and my throat's dying on me. Im glad i went for all those other holiday trainings with the main team and improved myself, or i would have just died. ah. damn.

And when our love seems to fade away,
Listen to me hear what I say,

I don't wanna feel, the way that i do
,I just wanna be,
Right here with you
I don't wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you...

What would it take, for you to see
To make you understand that I'll always believe
You and I, can make it through
And still know, I can't get over you
-WESTLIFE, I MISS YOU

cant seem to keep it aside
cause all those feelings
are rushing back inside
its you im missing
im missing you

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2007-02-15T12:03:00.000+08:00

A week ago i found out that my bro had been going to the gym every morning at 5am. So this morning i decided to go too, but of course not that early. Woke up at 6, ran for an hour at a speed of 9 on the treadmill. Its riduculous, that's why i skipped morning run and pe today. Was late for school as well, came with my hair untied. Im damnit tired now and i think i'll be hitting the sacks in about an hour's time(9). I've changed my new year's resolution and its now "im going to be as skinny as Bird by the end of the year". Btw, because of that resolution i ran at the gym again after school, cause it was pretty late and i was tired, i only ran for 15 mins.(: im crazy.

Vday today, it was okay, it felt pretty empty.

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2007-02-07T17:48:00.000+08:00

Stained Glass Masquerade - Casting Crowns
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d3a4p2O-Hz8

Really touching song so close to reality. Casting Crowns' latest album is the best(: Love love love their song. Watch the youtube vid for the lyrics and song!

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2007-02-02T14:01:00.000+08:00

The weekends are coming, im bracing myself for alot of stress. School's annoying though i got to leave school at 12.40 today(: Ran, swam, tanned and then slept my afternoon away, its the best day ever. I realised that this is my very FIRST free thursday, no training, no remedial, nothing. If only i had made my thursdays free, i think things would be different now.

Everybody's crazy over someone now. Hillary crazy over Durka, Rachel loves Bird(haha), Joey's head over heels for WLH and Shane(katherine moennig)... etc etc. Its a sad sad situation.

V Day's next week. How now.

I think im pathetic, i should just shut up from now on.

Make it clear, cause im taking a stand.

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2007-01-30T13:05:00.000+08:00

You never did get it, and for a really short moment i thought you did.
Looks like i thought wrong.

Im back to my slacking days, but i'll start the hard work soon. Tennis tournament today was @#$%^. Actually, we did quite alright since it was against the strongest school ever, RGS. God's generosity in giving sports talents never cease to amaze me.
Oh well,every game for God(:
i think part of the PL life is about reading V's blog. hahah, ok im joking. But seriously, im so bloody amazed at how even the A1 class dudes read her blog. Im beginning to think that probably the whole school does. Ms 'cockcomewind' (personal class joke) is becoming a legend because of that. xD

those three words dont mean a thing to you anymore.

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2007-01-29T14:17:00.000+08:00

Its too tormenting.

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2007-01-27T14:45:00.000+08:00

I went NAFA today, it was pretty boring but the people who went made it great(: V's Friend is hot, they look cute together. E,R,V and i got lost and were separated from the pack, the open house was boring anyway.

Life's getting real monotonous for me. yawns.

i never understood what you said and im fucking confused, i dont know what to feel or say anymore. Enlighten me.

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2007-01-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

AHH SHIT! ANDY RODDICK WAS TRASHED BY FEDERER):

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2007-01-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

I saw the pile of math homework and i realised that im sec4 already. I've wasted my sec3 life doing shit and regretting. So much i Could Have done, Should Have done, but i didnt and i feel useless, such a fool. When i think back on 2006, i feel like smacking myself and running into the wall, so hopefully, i'll forget them all. Its such a pain,and i've finally understood why rach lou and ann felt that physical pain was nothing compared to you-know-what. What the shit was i thinking? It felt perfect, but it was never that way. That big red blob of thing in my ribcage has been tugged at for the past dont-know-how-many months and its hurting, alot. I guess my year's about to begin.

i'll never know your reply,if there is even any.
cos its been so long and the answer to my prayers are clear.

But you cant stop me-
you cant stop me
from saying i love you.

Because all the time who were we kidding,
When we thought it was all fine?
Now just memories to treasure,
And no more wasted time.

So excuse me if I shed a tear
As I hear you say:
"It was great, but it's over.
I won't forget you, but it's over.
I loved you, but it's over."
And we go our separate ways.

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2007-01-23T14:49:00.000+08:00

i like the bedsheet

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2007-01-23T09:27:00.000+08:00

Patience said hi to me today, need i say more? I totally failed my math test cause Obtuse marked my graph wrong even though it was only 0.5 human error. I think Obtuse is a nicer name than cockcomewind or Doughnut or sugar plum fairy (which i think sounds a little too cutesy). Its only monday and im already wishing that tomorrow is sat. This is week 4 i think, which means its SS,Bio,Chem,Geog,Lit study week. Damn, im starting with bio(:

I feel like playing this following song to the p6kids in my cell grp.
I'm not here for your entertainment
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life

Cause you know it's over
Before it began

Sorry i interfered in your little charade,
cause i hate that little game you've been playing.

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2007-01-22T14:40:00.000+08:00

Its like being dropped from cloud 9
And trying your very best to climb back up again
-a great guy

Mummy dearest thinks my weekends are so bloody free. She's finally said it after begging me for 3 whole weeks to go shopping with her. Sorry, im dying to, but no time LEH. Unless having lessons for 2 different instruments and attending 3 cell groups all in one weekend is considered free, then Yes, im DAMN free. Plus there's this whole boring CLT (cell-leader's trg) thingy which i have to attend, gosh, stupid p6 kids. I seriously cant remember why i agreed to lead a p6 cell, one thing i've finally remembered though; I BLOODY HATE KIDS. Damnit mann. But but but, i love going for my own cell and Ben's cell(((: Cause, B (in my opinion) is so damn goodlooking and funny, my gosh, its like i can never tell he's from RI and RJC. Though he dug his finger into my cup of cheese,tricked me a gazillion times to throw paper & disgusting stuff away for him, i think he's so damn funny.(: I dont mind spending 2 hrs on a sunday morning just staring at him, so off to his cell i go! =D Too bad he's about the same age as my bro, why are all the cool dudes around that age? Damn, what happened to my bro mann?? !

Back to reality, 6 more days, 6 more days, ~~and im still thinking if you would still want to hear, if you still remember me, if you still thought of me.~~ I like my weekends, but probably not the next one. Now, of to drown my sorrows in textbooks.

What would you do if i felt this way all my life?

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2007-01-17T20:55:00.000+08:00

Im so lacking sleep. My eye bags are like WHOOHOO huge. And i feel like sleeping 24/7, i wish. I've been so damn busy, like studying and all since now im not training i seriously have to start working towards SA. Being busy has pretty much kept me occupied, too occupied to think about _. But time has caught up and i cant live in denial anymore mann. Is just a week more, im already growing old just thinking about what to say, if i'll say the right thing or not. Plus, im going to have a miserable 14feb this year. Seriously,i really really hope i can either get into SA or AC, if not, im DOOMED cause i may go to ngeeann poly. If so, i'll just be reliving my own little hell once again, and may just stay emo FOREVER. Read ann na's wrist, it says "kill me".

Its harder than i thought it would be
So much for being your one and only
Those times we spent
Does it mean anything to you
What should i say to change your mind
Cos im still praying that
You'll still be mine.

The countdown starts.
do you know? isly

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2007-01-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

Fuck. Im so pissed off but i cant scream. Looks like i wont be training for 7 days, but i guess i'll be back training before that. Throat infections are so annoying, but its a good cover and excuse for not talking. The People reminded me thats its almost a year... so much can happen in that one year huh. Damn it.

Excuse me Miss, i hate you.

Okay, so I've been mean the past few days cause everything just suck right now.
Caro was being nice and friendly to C that it seemed too impossible. I bet no one believed it at first. It IS wierd huh. And A just couldnt figure out anything positive between those 2 she thought i said "pulling each other's hair" when i clearly said "tying each other's hair". HAHAH. As the wise Julia said, "THE WORLD'S COMING TO AN END!" (: i love them lah.

I used to have u here with me
I think about u constantly
And i just had to let u know
Cant remember why i let u go
But here we got us a second chance
The answers are our true romance
And we dont have to be alone
Its time for u to come on home

-Brian McKnight, Try Our Love Again

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2007-01-07T19:38:00.000+08:00

Great to know you still care.But wait, maybe it was all just a dream, maybe im still living my own little lie. I cant go forward and back is no longer up to me. That smile you dont see, has vanished from me.

There's training tomorrow and i feel like dying, need i say more?

CCA fair, was alright. 83 sec1s signed up, which is good i guess. I didnt feel as estatic as Friday night at 11.50pm. Eme darling found out something and i felt like a bitch, which felt REALLY GOOD. But Sat, dont know, joy lasts for only a short while.

HAHA! SHE SO ~~UGLY~~ normal-looking

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2007-01-06T02:54:00.000+08:00

Friday night, the day where im home alone all night and i can do whatever i want. Its the night i think of * the most. Do you still remember those nights at the playground? There's a pretty full moon tonight as well, and it isnt making me feel better. So i've got the whole night to lie at the playground and moon-gaze.

Lessons ended at 4.10 today. Training at 4.15. This is getting ridiculous, but at least trg isn't that tiring anymore.

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry

I was here
You were there
Guess we never could agree

While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

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2007-01-05T08:47:00.000+08:00

I played tennis with Eme darling in school today(: She's funny, but still wayyy better than rachel lim before and after learning tennis. Kok is my maths teacher now, and i dont know if i should celebrate or cry. Well, as long as i pass maths, i guess its fine. Chinese was pretty funny, but its only the first lesson so.. we'll see. I hate my form teacher, she doesnt know a shit about the school and stuff. She didnt allow me to leave my silent-reading book in class cause she claims we need to read a different book everyday-_-She thinks in 40 mins i can read finish a whole book, think i reading fairytale ar? tsk. Eme rach and i found a new spot to spy at eyecandies during trg. hahahaa. Actually only Eme's. I chatted with Houlaoshi today(: she so totally likes me. Bird has hot legs mann, so does azu(according to eme).

I thought of you a million times today. One day, just one day, give me no more of your excuses please.
She's so ugly. HAHAHA.

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2007-01-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

Alright, emo post is over. First day of school was @#$#%^. Cause, i hate all that walking and i dont exactly know who the fuck my form teacher is. Anyway, im pretty disappointed, im no longer in the same chinese class as Bird, Dory and Caro): And of course, Hou laoshi isnt teaching me anymore, so is SemYY. I love her name btw, its so cool. hahaha.

Training was okay. Im so frigging glad we didnt have to run 2.4km. 14 people from bdiv turned up for trng today, and thats great, cause it means that i have a chance to not be chosen for sch team=D Seriously, i have no interest in training anymore. If anyone noticed, i was slacking my ass off when coach made us play a match against each other and the juniors. T sucks lah.

Someone owes me a kiss. Okay, i shan't rub it in anymore, cause its suppose to make me feel less emo. My classroom is surrounded by sec1 and 2 classes, its making me feel worst.

[please tell me if you still love me too]

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2007-01-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

I love Brian McKnight. He so rocks my emo world. His song lyrics are like.. OMG. "BRIAN MCKNIGHT KNOWS WHAT IM THINKING MANN!" So im going to indulge in his song and be emo. Here are a few songs that i so love the lyrics.Show me the way back to your heart, Til i get over you, Last dance, Dont let me go, Is the feeling gone, One last cry, Come back, Still in love, Been so long, So sorry(i feel like cying when i see the lyrics mann).

Outside I'm smiling
Inside I'm crying
I just keep denying
Till I get over you

Endless times I stayed up
All night, waiting for you to call
Lying to myself
'Cause, you aren't thinking about me at all

My eyes are holding back the tears
My pride won't let you see me act a fool
Cause I'll be damned if I let you know
That I still feel something for you

-Til I Get Over You, Brian McKnight.

Is the feeling gone my love
Is it not as strong to you and i
Are we still in love?
Has the fire died my sweet
Don't i sweep you off your feet anymore, baby
Tell me if i'm right
This is killing me baby
It makes me wanna cry
The message you're sending me baby
Tears me up inside but tell me where
Where are all the butterflies
Cause they no longer move inside of you, baby
Are they dead and gone
Have they flown away my sweet
Or am i buried somewhere deep inside of you

Tell me where i am
If i've done something wrong lady
What's the nature of my crime
Don't keep me hanging on baby
This is the place and time

Is the feeling, feeling, feeling gone my love
Where did all this doubt come from in me my love
Have we grown apart
Is it cold right here in my arms
Or have you found another's heart to keep you warm

-Is The Feeling Gone, Brian McKnight.

For all emo kids out there( like Dory)
I got my lyrics from here (; http://browse.lyrics.astraweb.com:2882/browse/bands/8/Brianmcknight.html

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2007-01-03T07:46:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year. Mum didnt allow me to go countdown with LCR. So i stayed at home feeling sore about myself. Didnt get to see the person i wanted to see too. Why am i not suprised? A million excuses are thrown at me just for one simple request. Well, its my fault anyway, i created this scenario with my own terrible decision. Blahs. SO why do i still miss you?

Big Bird Lee is so fucked up. Whats with the 'walking-back-to-lorahsoo' school idea? Dad's thinking twice about fetching me to school cause he says its a total waste of time and petrol since im going to walk back anyways. Damn. I hate feeling so emo.

i know if you could hear me you would
Say there are always two sides of a story
You're so right, here's mine
I cannot live without you

Love was never easy,
But leaving you was hard,
And time didn't heal my wounds at all
I wonder, if you know what i'm going through
All the lonely times that we're apart

I miss you, oh i miss you
I'm gonna need you more and more each day
I miss you, more than words can say
More than words can ever say

Saying sorry was a question of my pride
Pride can push aside a loving heart,
In the end emotion has ruled my mind
And i'm asking for a second start
-Haddaway, I Miss You.

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2006-12-31T21:47:00.000+08:00

I played tennis today again, as a result i skipped dinner. But its worth it, i feel so much better now. Kept thinking about the SimplePlan song, Addicted. I think i love that song right now, cause its exactly what im feeling. Like mixed feelings of blah blah blahs. Damnit, i hate what you're doing to me, or not doing to me. Fuck.

I had a long-lost chat with Eme darling today(: I realised more than ever, that i hate my school. People that are already out of it, should just STAY OUT. Fuck mann, you want rumours to spread? i'll GIVE you rumours to spread. ARGH!.(no Eme, im not talking about you. you know i love you)

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waitin'
Can't make you mine

simple plan-addicted

2006-12-31T15:09:00.000+08:00

Simple plan-Addicted

I heard you're doin' OK
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you thinkI deserve this?
I tried to make you happy
But you left anyway

I'm tryin' to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it
And I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
Still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waitin'
Can't make you mine

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2006-12-30T16:15:00.000+08:00

I just weighed myself and i lost 6 kg. Finally! China trip is gone from me(; But i still look the same damn it. Still fat as ever.

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2006-12-30T15:52:00.000+08:00

Im satisfied today, cause i finally got to play tennis as long as i want all by myself. Played for 4 hours straight, venting out everything i had on the ball. Its great. My arm hurts but its worth it. Had major jamais vu(its the opposite of dejavu), everthing felt so unfamiliar. Im done with my commonwealth essay, its the only work i've done so far. The story is abit like Resident Evil, i need the cca pts man, hope the teachers like it.

Im sorry coach saadiah and the netballers who went for trg on thurs. I feel like just giving up on netball. Cant blame me cause when things werent going so well in netball, another better sport just came by. And... well, it seemed like a better option. But deep down, i know i still love netball, even if its just a tinsy bit. Dont try to figure out what i said, cause its not sports im talking about. Let me curl up and die.

Just had a long lost chat with Lou and Charms. Realised this cycle of love and life is just so fucking annoying. I mean, why is it so bloody predictable, that im able to tell the both of them in different scenarious,"ive been there done that:" ? Fuck love mann. Rachel is the only wierd and unpredictable one, like... whats with going back to J again??? Go figure, cause im too tired to.

This is a pic of BenYuen when he still had long hair. HAHAHA.(Davin, i know you SO want his photo)

I know you're prob not reading this, but i feel like saying it again, and im going to say it everyday.
I love you, but i know you dont love me. So fuck you.

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2006-12-29T16:59:00.000+08:00

Just read some other blogs. And im pretty glad that in this 12 days of Christmas, even with the partying, alcohol and all, there are still people as emo or even more emo than me out there, who think this year's Christmas is so fucked up cause of personal problems. For once, just once, i dont quite feel alone.(: Thanks man. I love you. I hope you love me too, but i know you dont. So fuck you. Life's great huh.

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2006-12-29T16:43:00.000+08:00

Boxing Day party at Ann Na's house was pretty fun. Finally saw Ry & Eme again after a gazillion years(: Drank till i felt pretty high although the Tiger tasted disgusting. A's sis is like so damn cool, she poured almost an entire glass of martini(i think) into the coke and we played the 'I have never" game. And through that game i found out that most of us there watched porn, since Lword was considered soft porn. Bird and her ridiculous theories. Candice hoho didnt even need to drink for anything, act innocent only. Charis and her bf totally did smth i dont wanna know in the toilet. Ann na saw something that she shouldnt have when they came out. Tsk tsk. Stop staring at his *** LAH! haha. V, Ann na and her sis danced on their self-created dancefloor, while Bird,Paddy,Charis & i watched and drank. They tried with all their strength and will to pull Marisse off the couch to dance, but they failed. haha. Sad, i wanted to see her dance. So, it was fun, except for the part Ann na was talking to her dog, it was a little disturbing. (:

How could i just forget it all?
ISLY.

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2006-12-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

I miss you ~~too~~

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2006-12-27T17:48:00.000+08:00

You're at one end of the world
And im at the other, waiting.

Guess how i spent my Christmas this year. It's probably the worst ever. An entire day reading my past mails, both in paper form and from hotmail. I could've gone out with bro and his pals who are like the coolest people EVER, but i chose not to. Bro was right after all, I was the one that rejected Christmas. Dad was feeling nostaligic too cause Mum left him at home while she went for facial or something with her friends. He was looking through some photos and he asked what for me would bring back only happy memories and make me smile. And i said "My hotmail account". Its true. Sad isn't it? Just a click away from reality.

Boxing day was better. Ice-skated with Keith,Ben Yuen,Jon,Davin,bro and a few others. They are FUNNY. Ben FINALLY cut his long hair, although he was super sore about it. His short hair was a mistake, he only wanted to trim abit but the hairdresser cut too much and made him look like some apple, so he had to cut it all off. Well, now he looks more decent lah. (;

I still.

2006-12-25T01:38:00.000+08:00

Craig David-One Last Dance

One last dance with you
Even though what we have is strong
Both of us know that we've done wrong
You could lose everything
Need to give it up
Just one last dance with you
For all the moments that we shared
All the lies they don't compare
You gotta go back to him, and I realize that
Every time I see your face I know
There's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

And I would give my heart
Give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you
Though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do

One last dance with you
So hard to find the words to say
But I can't see any other way
Girl you've risked everything
Time to give it up
Just one last dance with you
And though it breaks my heart to leave
We both know it's time to let it breathe
You gotta go back to him, girl I realize that
Every time I see your face I know
There's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

And I would give my heart
Give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you
Though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do

So many times we tried to hold back
We been here before now girl
And it feels so cruel, yeah
A million tears won't change the fact that
I find it hard to play the game
When I feel like i'm the one to blame

But I would give my heart
Give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you
Though I don't wanna stop I know it's the right thing to do

And I would give my heart
Give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you
And make our peace with god
I know it's the right thing to do.

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2006-12-25T01:08:00.000+08:00

I realised miracles only happen once in a lifetime. Well, goodluck to me,cause i've already used up my one miracle last year. So much for Christmas wish.

Was 3hrs late for Bird's party. Ann na gets wierder everytime i see her. She wore like what people in Taiwan are wearing now, and its winter there. It was pretty funny. Skipped GraceYong's party, cause it was too far. HAHAH. Left Birdy Wirdy's house at 12.45 cause Mum was being an ass. Oh and, MERRY CHRISTMAS.

It doesnt even feel like christmas this year. For me at least. Last year's was so different. It'll never be the same. Daddy didnt let me play tennis today cause the floor was wet and he didnt want me to dirty his balls,i mean,TENNIS balls. So, headed to town with Bro and friends who saw this blanga touching this girl, so they beat him up. They brought me through this dark alley beside Cineleisure which was supposedly the "ah beng gang" place hangout. Bro said there are always gangfights breaking out there. So we were practically running through the alley to avoid any trouble.Scary.

Shit, i think im getting tennis elbow. Coach saadiah is going to sit on me. Dont think i'll be joing this yr's tournaments. sigh.

All i asked, just a little wish
If you told me not to,
I would never have.
Looking back, couldnt you see
Your shadow standing right next to me.
A flicker and you're gone
Your love i have thus forlorn
You have bereft me of all hope
Reaved thy already shattered soul.
I crave for your return
But pride has already, taken its toll

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2006-12-24T00:28:00.000+08:00

Tonight was great, amidst all the pain i realised that there are actually still great people all around me. Gabriel and Davin are hilarious, they just kept me laughing and all, almost forgetting all my probs. Davin is like on high 24/7, the woodbridge kind of high. Its funny how the very people who are dearest and closest to you cant tell you're troubled while everyone else can.

Last night, played tennis for 3 hours till this morning about 4am. It was Great. I felt like Jill venting all her anger and focusing every bit of strength on the tennis ball. Sometimes its so exhilarating that i just feel like falling on my knees and breaking out in tears. But well, you can say i've cried my tears dry, so its tennis now. Anyway, went to bed thereafter. When i woke up, i felt like throwing myself back on the tennis court. I didnt cause my arms kind of hurt. My morning was just a bad wake up call to reality, a reality that made me feel terribly fat and ugly. I AM fat and ugly.

If i knew what was waiting for me back in Singapore, i wouldn't have returned. I'll rather stay in a foreign land, living in denial that all was fine;you were mine. At least there, i wont have access to the web, i would still continue to believe in those 3 words. I hear my racket calling me. Goodbye to you.

The unstable legs I walk with,
Are giving in again,
And the doubts that have surrounded me,
Are finding their way in

How can I pretend
That I'm not still in pain,
And wipe away the tears
That fall like rain?

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2006-12-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

Guess how im feeling. I havent g.o.y. For now, im going to drown my sorrows with tennis., I dont care if its midnight and there arent any lights. I dont care even if the stupid guard chases me out. I have sorrows to drown. And tennis, is my way of doing it.

The doors are closed.
The walls are up.
I feel cheated.

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2006-12-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

Thanks alot for forgetting me, really.

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2006-12-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

Im back from Taiwan!! (: The shopping was TERRIBLE.Its like ahlian's paradise. Dad gave me S$100 to shop, so did Mum cause of some miscomm.HAHA. So i had S$200 to shop. I lasted without buying anything for 6 days(there wasn't anything to buy anw)and on the last day i busted it all on an adidas jacket!!! =D its nice mann! Its orange.

The 4th day there i realised my left contact lens had a hole in the middle. It was so ridiculous that my Mum didnt believe me. So i went without my lens for 4 days):

I had some sort of a dream 3 nights ago that i cant remember. Bro shared a room with me and apparently he said he heard me say some stuff in my sleep. Shitballs. The bad thing is, he isn't gonna tell me what i said,cause it was pretty disturbing. May i kill myself now? I hate my subconscious-self.

I taught my bro how to play the Shutiao game(: He quit after playing 4 rounds of it with me. I won the first round and lost the rest. Damn.

Last of all, I MISS EVERYONE. But no, not coach sadia. I heard it flooded really badly on mon and tues. Some wacky old taxi driver was telling my Dad that Thomson road was being washed away by the flood. HAHA. Bet the netballers had to build an ark to train in! xD

[When the love seems to fade away]

right here waiting

2006-12-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

Right Here Waiting-Richard Marx

Ocean's apart day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times

That I thought would last somehow

I hear the laughter, I taste the tears

But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby

You've got me going crazy

I wonder how we can survive

This romance

But in the end if I'm with you

I'll take the chance

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2006-12-15T18:20:00.000+08:00

Msn is being fucked up, i can't sign in and i dont know why. My bro thinks im a total wierdo cause i gave him THE STARE when he siad "shit". Stupid netball rule is screwing me. This is probably the last post for the coming week unless i get my hands on a com in a foreign land.
Now, im feeling really frustrated cause i cant find my favourite pair of yellow nike socks and i currently dont have enough underwear for my trip thanks to the rainy weather for the past few decades. Argh! I hope they show Night At The Museum on the plane if not i'll prob feel sour for the entire trip.

On a lighter note, im thinking of 3 special someones(: I sound like the Guru in the funny Polar Bear game! "KILL E-LIZ!!" That's my last words. HAHA. And Dory wants me to post this phrase she repeated SEVEN times in a day.
" Last year, Gloria was too ugly for us to notice. This year, Gloria was SO ugly that we noticed"
Im not so mean to say that lah huh, but Dory is! xD Where's Mr Cucumber? hahaha.

Bye Singapore! Hello 5kg!

Im missing you

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2006-12-15T14:35:00.000+08:00

Im finally done!! After a gruelling 4 hours. This took longer than i expected, its like longer than the time spent designing the farewell tee. I realised they look somewhat similar xD. Woops! Im saving my creative juices for O's art. Speaking of which, just 2 more sketches then off to Taiwan i go(:

Training was pretty good today, despite the scorching sun raving down on us, plus we did double of all the drills. Stupid coach. The game was awesome, we thrashed Coral Sec i think, but coach said we still suck. Well, i guess we still aren't ready for tournaments. IDGAF. Hahaha. And im never going to umpire again. I heard coach laughed at me too. Damn,Qy, you're the man! Im so attending the umpire's course after the O's! 10 bucks per hour/game, here i come!(:

Aw, 2 guys, one of which is an ahbeng who walks like there's something stuck up his ass, likes DORY. She couldnt believe that they weren't able to tell she was gay(haha). Maybe they ARE gay! Haha. Too much sugar arh.

tell me you know how i feel